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20.5.2011

宝贝...5月20号叻...快点讲我爱你...

"我爱你"

就这么简单一句

就足够让我开心的飞起来了......=.="....

现在想回去

以前的我...真的很容易就满足

很快的

又到了2012年的5月20号了

可是去年跟我说"我爱你"的人已经不在了

可是我并没有想要他回到我身边

因为我清楚的知道

不爱你的人是不值得你去留念的

当然我现在留念的人已经不是他了...>.<...

之前在面子书又说到

有个前辈告诉我

偶尔发发梦也没有不好

因为有梦想才会成功

这个人

就是我一直坚持要继续作梦的人

虽然觉得不可能会发生的事

可是还是愿意为了他发这个梦

虽然不能天天见面

所以每次都很珍惜跟他在一起的时间

当然其实自己也不敢抱太大的希望在他身上

因为怕有一天会失去他

到是连朋友都没有的做

那我就会伤心死了

明天就是5月20号

我自认没有这么大的勇气告诉他

因为我怕讲了他会连朋友都不肯跟我做

只好在这里默默的陪着他

我知道他心里不会有我存在的地位

我也只想默默的喜欢他

直到那一天

我不再喜欢他

最后

祝天下的有情人

都能找到自己的另一半

过着幸福的日子

梦想世界vs现实世界

突然有感而发
每次有东西想有心事的时候
都喜欢写东西
因为不知道可以跟谁讲
只好把全部东西都写在这里
看的人不知道我是谁
所以写的我也不会有压力

不知不觉
单身已经有9个月了
也慢慢开始习惯了
在这段日子里
有一班朋友的陪伴
让我的生活中
多了以前不曾有过的欢乐
也多了以前缺少的自由

现在的我
爱做什么
就做什么
不再是以前那个
往往要看人脸色来决定自己的下一步的人

现在的我
过的很充实
要玩就玩
要睡就睡
要跟谁出去就跟谁出
可是...
当自己一个人的时候
就会觉得很寂寞
看见一对对的情侣
也觉得很寂寞
老是在想
我的亲爱的...你怎么还没出现啊??

有时会觉得自己很变态
有旧男性朋友突然找我
就会觉得人家对我有意思
不然就是有空没空去stalk人家
看看人家是否单身
过后就会问自己
真的这么寂寞吗???

如果有人追
那当然是好啦
可是都没有
不要说有没有人追啦
如果有一天真的有
我也不知道我会不会接受
我的心一直告诉我
"你不怕啊...???"
过后再问问自己
原来我真的怕
怕恋爱
怕开始
怕受伤害

天啊
告诉我应该怎样吧......

你还是要幸福

田馥甄，还是要幸福。
为什么是这首歌??
因为曾经的爱人已经有了新的爱人了
恭喜你们!!!!

我想
你们应该会很惊讶
为什么我会知道吧
当然咯
Puchong这么小
如果不要给我遇到你们拍拖
那就不要在Puchong咯
哈哈...

虽然刚知道的时候
是有点酸酸的感觉
可是不要误会啦
不是因为还喜欢你
也不是因为你是我的朋友
知是不服气
竟然快过我找到另一半！！！！

无论如何
恭喜你们吧
祝你们甜甜蜜蜜
相亲相爱

 ~Congratulations E and Y.C ~

A New Start?? Perhaps...

Okay...should have posted post about how I have been through with my Chinese New Year, my family dinner and stuff.
But thanks to those who like to play with my computer so much
Downloading things I do not want to see on my desktop...
And yes
Virus attacked and have to be re-format
And TA-DA~~~
Everything gone...
Including all my document for my college use
All my Jay Chou picture and songs
And also all the picture that I have taken!!!
Only one word can express my feelings for now
W.T.H......=.="...

So now I can only bear with the pictures that I have uploaded to my Facebook... Thanks God and also blog...
But just out of a sudden I realized...
Everything is gone...
Including all the links to his personal or daily website...
Everything GONE...
So is God telling me that I should really move on and left this person behind??

I have to admit
I really had a hard time forgetting him
I favourite his blog so that I can still see him and get to know how is he doing
I still went to his Facebook page to see if he is still single or in a relationship
Sometimes I will still ask myself
EXCUSE ME?? I THOUGHT YOU HAVE ALREADY FORGET ABOUT HIM??
But then my answer will still be...
Have I totally forget about him??
I really have no idea...

Just before logging in to update my blog
I am still browsing through his Facebook page
Peeping at his albums again and again
And this time
Feel lesser pain
I have always been hoping for him to come back and say that he is sorry
But I have waited for 7 months
There is still no returns
The reason is not that I want him back by my side
I just wanted to know if I am the only one that appreciate him but not the one appreciated
But I guess I have know the answer
Which I should have realised it since the day we broke up

And for the first time
I really want to thanks the person who made virus to my computer resulting it to be formatted
And I think God is really helping me
Thank you for letting me know what I should do
Thanks for giving me the strength to move on
I know I will find the right person
And I know I would

假装不在乎

很快的
明天就是过年的最后一天了
这么快就过完年了
hrmm...
有点不舍得的感觉
为什么?
我自己也不知道

昨天在网上看到这个很有意思的一句话

怎样？
有意思吧...
让我觉得自己很特别的人
突然“跑”了
吊在半空中的我
没有办法
只好假装不在乎

其实
真的不知道对方在想什么
更不知道自己在想什么
我还以为自己对他来说
跟别人会有点不一样
可是过后才发现
原来跟别人应该没什么两样

没有见面的时候
就偶尔在网上谈下几句
见面的时候
感觉有不一样
一大班出的时候
他会特地跑过来我哪里
然后问下没有见面的时候做了些什么

在一起的时候
他会告诉我很多事情
他都说这些是他只告诉我
他甚至介绍他家人给我认识
连他很疼得“干儿子”
上次去他家
也介绍给我

可是
我们就是什么都不是啊
那你说
他是不是让我觉得特别
然后要我吊在半空中
还要假装不在乎
不在乎你没有找我
不在会见不到你
不在乎要在乎的一切

几乎每晚都会在梦里看到你
可是早上起来
却要告诉自己
那只是梦
是自己想得太多太多了

更伤感的是
情人节要到了
进年的我
既然要自己一个人过
虽然往年的情人节
多不是说很特别的过
可是至少有各半在身边
那还不会觉得这么孤独
今年
要自己一个人过情人节
而且还要在学校办情人节活动
白白看着一对一对幸福的情人
在我面前晃来晃去
心痛死了!!!!!!

我还要单身多久啊
我难道真的这么差劲吗？
前男友不要我
现在也没有人要我
T.T...

开心乐龙龙

Haha...its finally Chinese New Year!!! Haha...this is what I have been waiting for throughout the whole year. 2 days before the actual day of Chinese New Year, we drove back to our hometown in Ipoh. This year we broke the record because we have taken the longest time to reach Ipoh from KL which is a total of 8 hours!!! Can you imagine that. The road is superb jam and pity my dad who is the driver for the day.

REUNION NIGHT

After breakfast with grandma, we one family went to ah ma house to visit her. Its been a while since we see her. So just sneak up and show our cute face to her.

At night, a day before Chinese New Year, we have our reunion dinner. All types of nice food set lay on the table waiting for us to eat them. This is what I like the most during Chinese New Year!!! FOOD!!!!

As New Year also talks about reunion and that is the main purpose why we have reunion dinner, so we made tang yuan too which is to be eaten on the very first day of Chinese New Year.

1ST Day of CNY

Haha..first day of Chinese New Year already!!! Can get ang pao. But in order to get lots of ang pao, we have to be very hardworking to go and visit our relatives and friends.

Here we go!!

Heading to my Ah Ma (mum's mum) house for belated reunion dinner. Say Cheese...>.<..

Vegetarian food for the first day of CNY.

Me & Bro.

My cute mum

Mummy n her sister

Hoi Fan la!!!!

2nd day of CNY. Had lunch before heading back to KL.

3rd day of CNY. Heading to Yong Peng to visit my eldest aunt. 

Reached. Picture time.>.<.

Me & Elviy. Miss you gal...>.<...

Heading to lunch. The Girls in the car...>.<...

All the leng lui with our beloved grandma.

Daddy and Mummy. Sweet...>.<...

4th day of CNY. Went to Grandma's brother house.

Lunch again. Hur....CNY non stop eating...

Had gathering with Taiwan friend after that.

6th day of CNY. Gathering at my house. Sis Xiu Qin with her boyfriend.

2 couple in the house.

Yeng zaissss...

Leng luisssss

Group photo. 

7th day of CNY. Went to Genting with family.

8th day of CNY. Bai Tian Gong  at aunty house. Me & Abby.

Aunty & Bryan. Cute little boy.

Me & Mandy

Fire works!!!!

Last day of CNY. Dinner at Eaven's house. 

Thats all for the CNY. Happy CNY!!!!>.<...

Last Day of Work at Hero Shah Alam

Hrrmm...you must be wondering. Why am I posting this even though I have been working at a lot of places and a lot of times. Its because I have never worked such "lousy" place before!!! Last time I used to feel eager on going to work. But when I worked here, my mindset would be like: "Working again???!!!"

But after 3 weeks of torture, today is the end!!! Is so happy for me and my partner, Shane.

Haha, Chinese New Year costume for Tropicana Twister with ang pao!!!

This fellow was forced by me to hold my red ang pao too.>.<.

Group picture.!!>.<.

For the last few weeks, both of us doesnt even have a proper lunch during break. We either have to bear with the lousy food at the mamak beside the supermarket or have to pay toll to went back Puchong to have a proper lunch. 

But yesterdat, after loiterring around for about half an hour, we managed to find a Chinese Restaurant that can fill our stomach with better food plus reasonable price. 

Today after lunch, we were sitting there reading newspaper when I spotted this!!!

My Idol on the newspaper!!! I know its normal but I was just too overjoyed!!!

It is the news about his new movie - Viral Factor.  

This movie was shoot at the heart of Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur with Hong Kong artist, Nicholas Tse

Jay Chou, you are always my idol.!!! Love you!!!

Then after break we drove back to our workplace again. But we were lazy to get down, to started working in a shopping mall with staff that is more than the customers.

So I started to "promote" his car by taking pictures...>.<..

Non-stop showing off his muscles...=.="... No eye see...>.<...

Angry bird with cars. Weird combination.>.<.

Wet look. Cause we off the engine to save petrol. Then we became roasted pigs...>.<...

Back to the hypermarket. Camwhore again!!!

Shane saw this ladder behind his booth. Dint succes in exploring it yesterday, so didnt give up trying today. And~~succeed!!!

Part-time worker for Hero...>.<...

The day end at last. Feels happy cause Chinese New Year is coming and we dont have to go back and work there anymore. But quite sad that we wont know if we still have chance to work together in the future.

But I will still keep all this as memories.

~~Happy Chinese New Year~~